Deadlock

At a standstill

frozen in separation's chill

devoid of will to be

heart's fallen leaves

dying stallion of heaves

totally bereft of thee

I woefully weep

praying for eternal sleep.

No strings attached

to establish a connection

victim of beauty unmatched

I am addicted to you

in need for intervention

impossible to pull through

no point in grasping at straws

wish I could change the attraction laws.

Finally I slumber

exhausted by despair

no more a living number

oxymoron dreams pay me a visit

spectral visions congesting the air

apparitions quickly inspissate

swept off my spirit amidst a rite

trajectory of a meteorite

a blazing shooting star

entering a new dimension

the aftermath a crash site bizarre

crow messenger in wire suspension.

With a bird's eye view from the distance

the knowledge of your existence

builds up in me resistance

to make it through another day

preventing me from flying astray

thought of you living in the world gives it grace

the planet becomes a better place.

I become the garments enveloping your body

birthmarks, tattoos and scars on your skin

the very shoes you walk in

carrying to cast out your every burden

put sin under lock and key

make it mine and set you free

redemptive act like a sip of toddy.

Into your murky ocean eyes I dive

to the farthest depth

where images of restlessness thrive

observe with a lacking breadth

in the darkest parts of your mind

I embrace your fears, regrets and evil side

lift your spirit up in order to purify

make it ascend whereas I petrify.

Thereby I remove your angsty furrow

kiss the mouth of your feeling cruel kind

while we part, goodnight

float inside the abyss dormant

a sunken former pastime decorement

falling asleep and preparing for tomorrow

only to wake up from dreams within dreams

logic comes apart at the seams

then recall and wail in my real sorrow.

Dreaming of my sorry life in mise en abyme

will my heart ever find its lost gleam

will the black clouds part

reveal a bright sky of pure art

and shine down on me your sunshine beam

me beside you living together as a team?